You want to make things right? Too bad. Nothing's ever right.

I am off of my birth control for the week and my emotions are crazier than normal. I stopped counting the times I've wanted to kill myself today. Not the fun metaphorical sixteen year old girl kind, it's the not so fun really depressed kind. But on the upside, my emotions are crazy and if I were to act on me wanting to kill myself, by the time I actually had the means to, I wouldn't feel like it anymore. So I have that going for me, I suppose. But I haven't gotten any of the fun, nice emotions. Only things ranging from anger to suicide. No happy or content or joyful. Heaven forbid my brain wants me to be happy.

I think Wendell and Topher finished Firefly. At least I hope so. I have been wanting to play video games but every time they are watching that damn tv show. Actually, Wendell is constantly watching tv so I can't play video games. We need another tv. All she watches is Frasier and god awful news shows.

I have too many rants about her and with my emotions being all shitty I'm not going to get into them except that I will never live with her after this. I would rather move back in with my parents in Tampa than live with her. I hate it.